Again it is that darkness looms.
In lightless silence, beneath the rain
A lonesome strife deigns to bloom.
And once again do you feel pain.
Surely it has grown banal.
Such a fate can only appall, and hurt.
What gall! A flood,
Yet difficult to divert.
But here I am, and so are you.
We stand together in brittle silence,
We stand beneath the pouring rain.
Again it is that you feel pain,
Your suffering so ever-stark,
And without a single inkling of denial
All I can do is stand. All I can do is smile.
Because you, my dear; surely you see?
Somewhere far, entombed in seams
Lies a star. Of azure dreams.
Somewhere near, as this sky bleeds
There is
A dark night descended upon the earth
With birdless silence and a chill.
But somewhere far, up on a hill
A strange new thing calls from my girth.
Beneath the waves of this foul ocean
Far beyond the reach of sorrow,
A tiny smile, a small devotion
And two eyes that still are hollow.
I see it often within my dreams.
Those snow-crunching steps, how could I forget?
A puppet of smoke -- so small! -- and seams
Striding on a path unset.
Then, afar, I behold the mountains.
The bird above, the scent of salt.
Fountains.
All split by Zeus' bolt.
The smoke man scatters, the birds fall dead.
The mountains crumble, and... nothing.
I awake
To the song of
One-----
.
.
.
.
.
.
A breath.
His broken chest wheezes in death.
Thunder. Thunder. Thunder. Thunder. Thunder.
His cry tears the sky asunder!
Roaring with a righteous hunger
He lunges. The hunter.
Bloodied howls in his wake.
Blood follows, for his sake.
No man is left awake...
***
Two---
.
.
.
.
His girth withstood a lightning.
A wrath divine rained on his sighting
But the shadow garnered faith, and strength!
Its blade was drawn, a sheen its length.
But it... he... it had died, a while past.
"It died!" the forest cried, aghast
When the shadow moved.
A step.
***
Three-...!
.
.
.
In that night, a visage dreary
Before that sight, an e
Pointlessness is the breath of all that is to be.
This is the way that I see.
No one is free...
I listen to the piano's sound.
Heard or no, the ripple sings
Traveling in rings.
My tears are boring. Pointless, even, are they not?
What does crying achieve?
Hope?
No, survival causes hope. Crying? Being?
Mere existence rejects salvation.
There is no hope...
Not at all, 'least not for me.
But if not I, then who shall live?
I gaze at the world so purely, and still...
But maybe therein lies the folly.
Whilst I teeter, others live wholly.
How...?
It is sad. I alone dare see the dawn.
I alone pursue this Heaven!
So why, do I, tire?
Living tires
These little sounds
Like fireflies...
They take me away
To foreign skies.
With these words broken
My thoughts piece together. And...
Sentences. Together...
A song...
I am alone...
In meadows green... Can we both smile?
This gives our hopes denial. And the snow is so cold tonight...
Autumn has come. There's a little wind.
Time is frozen for me still.
Can songs escape small, frozen lips?
A new smile for each new day, is the only answer.
A run in darkness, and it feels so pointless.
There is no way to tell speed nor distance here.
Actions are unseen...
Only thoughts are clean and, I...
Am armed
... with...
Intention.
My eyes are bleeding
Unintelligible, Uttered. by TehDMCmaniac, literature
Literature
Unintelligible, Uttered.
How am I supposed to explain this feeling? In reality, I have no way to know if it's love or not in advance. I have nothing to compare it to, and yet the feeling is there, like a small whisper in my chest. There's nothing else it can be, and I know it even if I refuse to accept it.
It's strange. I wake up in the morning after an uneasy night of odd dreams. Dreams of missing appointments, failing to retain my consciousness, but occasionally, dreams of hopeful things. I wake up after all that and I feel weirder each day. Right off the bat I end up thinking about you. My interest in daily things thins, replaced by an ever growing hope of gettin
In the unsurprising darkness do I draw closer.
Before me lies a house.
In the dance of moon, in the light of day
I still stand in wonder. I've no home. It has been false.
Day.
Light is like a sharpened blade.
The ground is cut and torn asunder, its bleeding womb a mark of hunger
And why? An unimbibed thunder born down under... what?
In breathless wonder, amazement, astounded blunder
A day.
Week.
Incidents.
A week.
My words ended.
A retaliation brutal
Utter rebuttal!
I have no power
Condemned by a glower, I cower as the enemy flower and flower!
Losing sight of my tower, I wonder, I wander, I vower.
Valour! Incessant fire.
Mire.
For this I cry,
For when will I die?
The child waning scribbles true
In my void of blue.
Trust is the sound of death
But first, we need a breath.
The dust can settle later.
Later.
Cater, do we to our needs?
Cater, truly, to the deeds?
The silent bows, silent flows;
Hope... It snows.
It grew frigid.
This existence proved too rigid.
Trust can only echo at the start,
The rest, you leave to heart.
Can I truly live so free?
Can I truly shackle glee?
A prisoner of spilled temptation was,
Never was, a valid cause.
Yet sorrow paves the way anew,
To smear the sky again with blue.
I never did see the stars...
Never mind the nears, the fars.
Then
Once there stood a man.
Once, he had a plan.
Once, just then; a dream
Once, no more, would his flicker gleam.
Sparks. They fly about.
So... strong...
Yet so... pathetic!
Born of fire -- destruction's youth.
Born to mire our deepest truth.
Born to die and die again
Born for freedom
-- Born in vain.
I look into this fractured mirror
But one's beholder draws not nearer.
Thunderstruck, his voice bleeds in song
--Not for long.
Crimson words bathe in sanity
-- Free of vanity.
It drips, it drops
--Damn your toxic crops!
His angels cry in the choir of tears
--There stand no fears.
The mirror-man smiles with malice. Why? Why is he so content?
In the beginning there was only one.
Praising the beauty,
Mired by song,
One came to this land in search of his reflection.
In the beginning there was but one.
Amused by existence,
Infused with resistance,
One came to this land to avoid his reflection.
And... At first, there was none.
The eagle of shattered swords,
An idea born anew,
None came to this land in search of a reflection.
For, in the end, we needed None to remind us,
That, in the beginning, since the beginning,
Forever after, there will always be
But only
One.
Again it is that darkness looms.
In lightless silence, beneath the rain
A lonesome strife deigns to bloom.
And once again do you feel pain.
Surely it has grown banal.
Such a fate can only appall, and hurt.
What gall! A flood,
Yet difficult to divert.
But here I am, and so are you.
We stand together in brittle silence,
We stand beneath the pouring rain.
Again it is that you feel pain,
Your suffering so ever-stark,
And without a single inkling of denial
All I can do is stand. All I can do is smile.
Because you, my dear; surely you see?
Somewhere far, entombed in seams
Lies a star. Of azure dreams.
Somewhere near, as this sky bleeds
There is
A dark night descended upon the earth
With birdless silence and a chill.
But somewhere far, up on a hill
A strange new thing calls from my girth.
Beneath the waves of this foul ocean
Far beyond the reach of sorrow,
A tiny smile, a small devotion
And two eyes that still are hollow.
I see it often within my dreams.
Those snow-crunching steps, how could I forget?
A puppet of smoke -- so small! -- and seams
Striding on a path unset.
Then, afar, I behold the mountains.
The bird above, the scent of salt.
Fountains.
All split by Zeus' bolt.
The smoke man scatters, the birds fall dead.
The mountains crumble, and... nothing.
I awake
To the song of
One-----
.
.
.
.
.
.
A breath.
His broken chest wheezes in death.
Thunder. Thunder. Thunder. Thunder. Thunder.
His cry tears the sky asunder!
Roaring with a righteous hunger
He lunges. The hunter.
Bloodied howls in his wake.
Blood follows, for his sake.
No man is left awake...
***
Two---
.
.
.
.
His girth withstood a lightning.
A wrath divine rained on his sighting
But the shadow garnered faith, and strength!
Its blade was drawn, a sheen its length.
But it... he... it had died, a while past.
"It died!" the forest cried, aghast
When the shadow moved.
A step.
***
Three-...!
.
.
.
In that night, a visage dreary
Before that sight, an e
Pointlessness is the breath of all that is to be.
This is the way that I see.
No one is free...
I listen to the piano's sound.
Heard or no, the ripple sings
Traveling in rings.
My tears are boring. Pointless, even, are they not?
What does crying achieve?
Hope?
No, survival causes hope. Crying? Being?
Mere existence rejects salvation.
There is no hope...
Not at all, 'least not for me.
But if not I, then who shall live?
I gaze at the world so purely, and still...
But maybe therein lies the folly.
Whilst I teeter, others live wholly.
How...?
It is sad. I alone dare see the dawn.
I alone pursue this Heaven!
So why, do I, tire?
Living tires
These little sounds
Like fireflies...
They take me away
To foreign skies.
With these words broken
My thoughts piece together. And...
Sentences. Together...
A song...
I am alone...
In meadows green... Can we both smile?
This gives our hopes denial. And the snow is so cold tonight...
Autumn has come. There's a little wind.
Time is frozen for me still.
Can songs escape small, frozen lips?
A new smile for each new day, is the only answer.
A run in darkness, and it feels so pointless.
There is no way to tell speed nor distance here.
Actions are unseen...
Only thoughts are clean and, I...
Am armed
... with...
Intention.
My eyes are bleeding
Unintelligible, Uttered. by TehDMCmaniac, literature
Literature
Unintelligible, Uttered.
How am I supposed to explain this feeling? In reality, I have no way to know if it's love or not in advance. I have nothing to compare it to, and yet the feeling is there, like a small whisper in my chest. There's nothing else it can be, and I know it even if I refuse to accept it.
It's strange. I wake up in the morning after an uneasy night of odd dreams. Dreams of missing appointments, failing to retain my consciousness, but occasionally, dreams of hopeful things. I wake up after all that and I feel weirder each day. Right off the bat I end up thinking about you. My interest in daily things thins, replaced by an ever growing hope of gettin
In the unsurprising darkness do I draw closer.
Before me lies a house.
In the dance of moon, in the light of day
I still stand in wonder. I've no home. It has been false.
Day.
Light is like a sharpened blade.
The ground is cut and torn asunder, its bleeding womb a mark of hunger
And why? An unimbibed thunder born down under... what?
In breathless wonder, amazement, astounded blunder
A day.
Week.
Incidents.
A week.
My words ended.
A retaliation brutal
Utter rebuttal!
I have no power
Condemned by a glower, I cower as the enemy flower and flower!
Losing sight of my tower, I wonder, I wander, I vower.
Valour! Incessant fire.
Mire.
For this I cry,
For when will I die?
The child waning scribbles true
In my void of blue.
Trust is the sound of death
But first, we need a breath.
The dust can settle later.
Later.
Cater, do we to our needs?
Cater, truly, to the deeds?
The silent bows, silent flows;
Hope... It snows.
It grew frigid.
This existence proved too rigid.
Trust can only echo at the start,
The rest, you leave to heart.
Can I truly live so free?
Can I truly shackle glee?
A prisoner of spilled temptation was,
Never was, a valid cause.
Yet sorrow paves the way anew,
To smear the sky again with blue.
I never did see the stars...
Never mind the nears, the fars.
Then
Once there stood a man.
Once, he had a plan.
Once, just then; a dream
Once, no more, would his flicker gleam.
Sparks. They fly about.
So... strong...
Yet so... pathetic!
Born of fire -- destruction's youth.
Born to mire our deepest truth.
Born to die and die again
Born for freedom
-- Born in vain.
I look into this fractured mirror
But one's beholder draws not nearer.
Thunderstruck, his voice bleeds in song
--Not for long.
Crimson words bathe in sanity
-- Free of vanity.
It drips, it drops
--Damn your toxic crops!
His angels cry in the choir of tears
--There stand no fears.
The mirror-man smiles with malice. Why? Why is he so content?
In the beginning there was only one.
Praising the beauty,
Mired by song,
One came to this land in search of his reflection.
In the beginning there was but one.
Amused by existence,
Infused with resistance,
One came to this land to avoid his reflection.
And... At first, there was none.
The eagle of shattered swords,
An idea born anew,
None came to this land in search of a reflection.
For, in the end, we needed None to remind us,
That, in the beginning, since the beginning,
Forever after, there will always be
But only
One.
1. “so have you, like, ever fallen in love with a straight girl?”
she asks. “i bet it’s like, totally awkward.”
i laugh and stutter through a no that comes out
sounding too much like your name, and then you are there,
slipping into my mind without knocking, like you have any right
to come back unannounced. it has been months since you called.
i suppose that counts as awkward, but when people say awkward,
i think of teenagers skinning their knees tripping after each other,
of the sound of knives scraping dinner plates during sunday supper—
i do not think of your voice when you tell me you have found
the
Born in the city of Varna and having spent a life of pain, I have been reborn within the void left between the lines of every drop of ink I bleed upon the world.
Can't write an entry. Finally, I had a vision, a sliver of inspiration and I intend to drown myself in it while I still can. Tomorrow's woes will wait until dawn.
For tonight I shall live not on this earth, but within the Dream.
I doubt myself far too much, far too often. Yet what I doubt isn't just me. Tiny, whispering thoughts slide into my mind, making me wonder if I am even right to be so hopeful. My feelings are clearly true, yet is it right for me to bother Tessa so much? At the same time I remember how she left not out of dislike, but self-destructive fear...
No, I don't think I should give up. Eve if it's just to fulfill my oath, I have to persist so that I may try to shield her from loneliness. Damn all else, I have to do my duty to the one I love. At this point I really am not hoping for love at all. I have to try and protect her...
Only, I fear the only
What strange emptiness. Perhaps I've been empty for a very long time now, yet never to this extent. I still relive that day... the one before all of this fell apart. It was the happiest day of them all. We spent hours together, talking, cuddling, kissing. Hours wrapped in tender caresses as we drew our souls closer. How could something so profoundly beautiful, so undoubtedly true just... collapse? Is there no justice or fairness in the world? How is it that both me and Tessa chose to live in that moment because of its truthfulness, yet only one of us ended up believing in it? No matter how I look at it, I keep on seeing the same picture. Just